Woohoo first post

I remember about a year or so ago I walked into one of my classes and the professor said "Take out some paper, I'm going to give you a prompt. I want you to explain your thoughts on why we write."

Clever. My response was, naturally, an attempt at being "edgy" and critical of the human desire. So it basically said something along the lines of "We write because we're starved for attention. We want those who have never met us before, and will never meet us, to know our stories and hear our message. We write because sometimes there are things you just can't say, or even think, to anyone - including yourself. The words carry the message we're afraid to hear."

I thought I deserved some type of crazy prize for this chunk of Professor's gold, but of course it didn't happen. Instead I started to contemplate "If I'm such a cynic about writing, then why even do it?" But the problem isn't that I'm a cynic about writing, because in the long run I really love to write, I'm just unhappy about it being required of people. If you love to do something, you should never let other people push you down with their limitations on that passion. Which is why in the end when I decided to make a professional blog, I knew it would need a sister personal blog. And while frequently the twain shall meet, it's a strong release for me to have both. That way I can at least document what I'm ACTUALLY going through, instead of the superficial comedy I think others will want to read.

I think in the long run, I have a fairly distinct sense of humor. One a lot of people don't really get, but that's fine by me. I think the bigger message here for everyone to get is that a lot of the times humor is a big mask for the other issues someone might be going through, and they're rarely ever pretty. But you can hide your tribulations really well, if you choose to do so.

Personally, I am writing this blog not because I'm starved for attention, but because I want other people to hear my message. I haven't made it through the fire yet, but I'm close, and I'm not going to give up. And if you can come from nothing, see someone's fight for success, and literally watch them break through to the other side, maybe you can get something out of it. God knows I would have loved a "Miracles for Dummies" book growing up. Maybe this can be someone else's.